A party I went to

Sometimes I think we are all just running from our delusions, and it's not til we realize what they are [were] that we truly grow.

A kiss, a raindrop, a smile.

Today was ok. Highlight of the day: work, green eyes, and friendship.

Most beautiful thing that happened: he gave me that look.

Maybe there's no room for school. Maybe there's no time. I don't want to be left behind, so that I'm not on the same plane as my friends... I don't want to be the one tied down by responsibilities. I want to be free.

I want to fucking travel the country. I want to fucking see the world. I want to fucking make an adventure of it. I fucking want to live. But... I see what's in front of me. I've got to do this college thing. I've got to be in the system... or something. I want to, for some reason.

I feel like I'm losing my friends. I feel like I'm losing Max.

So confusing... this world is like a disease. No, not really. It isn't really. I can't help thinking you have to find happiness within yourself, like Achilles in the Iliad. Be perplexed, like Socrates...

I want to make music.

today

Why is it that American culture is so hesitant with sex? The only way we embrace our sexual side it seems is with humor. We should embrace it more sincerely.